Wednesday, July 6, 2016

3rd Time IS the Charm

I have been so lazy and a little nervous about blogging!  Its funny all the crazy emotions you go through with IVF and also surrogacy.  You are super happy, super sad, hopeful, angry, full of love, and sometimes very depressed.  Its something I definitely don't take for granted because this experience has taught me so much about myself and about perseverance!  

As probably most of you know because a lot of my blog followers are either family or friends on facebook, we are pregnant!!!  I took everyone on facebook for a little roller coaster ride by first telling them that this transfer didn't work again, to then telling them the next day that it worked.  Whoops!!  My bad!  It says a lot about my emotions going through all of this and my natural tendency to jump to negative conclusions.  

When we started this journey with Andrea, we all were so sure this would be smooth sailing especially because we got pregnant so easily the first time but then losing that baby at 11 weeks and then failing at our second attempt, panic can set in.  This round, we were all so sure it was it.  3rd times the charm right??  So when Andrea took 2 pregnancy tests the day of our blood work and they both came back negative--I was devastated.  No one gets negative pregnancy tests and then have a positive beta HCG (blood test for pregnancy) the same day.  So the next day when the phone call came from Andrea that the tests the next day were positive and then the doctor said the blood work was alos positive, I was not prepared!  But we are sooooooo happy!!! 

So here is our timeline from transfer:

June 15--transfer day of a 5 day blastocyst.  

She did it alone this time.  I felt awful, we were in Italy visiting my parents and nature does not follow schedules.  I somewhat wonder if this was better for Andrea.  I can be a nervous, crazy person in there.  My nerves show up in weird ways too! I go through all the drawers in the clinic and sneak in to places I shouldn't be.  Almost like a 10 year old boy.  I have lots of experience with them.  She is always telling me to sit down and relax, but I need to explore every nook and cranny and push all the buttons.  I even put the ultrasound machine on myself to see if I could find the area where my uterus should be. SO, I am sure it was a very calm experience this time. 

I emailed the embryologist to give me some info on the embryo this time around.  She said the embryo had 100% cell survival after thawing, so a very good chance for implantation. She said our clinic that did grading called it a grade B4.2.1 Grading is done different at different clinics, but with what I have learned, this is a great embryo.  Here's our baby!!!  Its so weird seeing it from so early on.  Crazy that this turns in to a baby!  I love science

June 22-Day 7 or as we IVF people call it 7dp5dt-beta tests came back at 81.
Here's the test Andrea took the following morning before we got the blood test results back.  She had one test left and just decided to use it.  She wasn't even going to look at it because she was also so sure it would be negative.  Sure glad she didn't chuck it!!  haha
 


I am going to add a picture that I added in an earlier post to help explain the numbers and what is normal ranges during this process.  I find it fascinating and I am obviously crazy because I research and research and research till there is literally no more information I could learn about beta blood work.  haha

So as you can see, on Day 7, 81 is above average, so that's very promising.  We are looking for our numbers to double every 48 to 72 hours, and that tends to be the thing we are watching for the most.  It will tell you if this is a viable pregnancy or not.

June 25- Day 10 or 10p5dt-beta test came back as 364.  Also a fantastic number, above average, and we are doubling in under 48 hours, so that is also a great thing.

July 2- Day 17 or 17dp5dt- beta came back at 4577.  Above average again and still doubling under 48 hours.

We are all beyond thrilled, well Andrea is pregnant and having the fun symptoms of that, but we are still thrilled.  haha  She says that she is so exhausted, wanting to eat really weird things, and a tad moody....  We love her so much for doing this for us, what a road she has been on to have a baby for someone else.   I apologize constantly about my baby.  My babies cause very strange cravings, I suffered from severe PICA with both.  So I can't wait to hear what happens with this pregnancy.  Luke it was vinegar, that's all I ever wanted.  I drank it in secret and doused everything in it.  It was really bad.  Jordyn I sniffed sponges.  I wanted to eat them, but Dave wouldn't let me.  What a drag.  I know!!!  Super weird.  I would have a sponge in my pocket every day that got switched out when the smell wasn't as strong and I had one during labor as well.  So hopefully this one is entertaining too. Love you Andrea.  bahahaha

Next Wednesday, July 13 we are heading to Vancouver for our first ultrasound.  Andrea will be about 7 weeks, so we should be able to see a heartbeat and make sure this little bean is healthy.  I won't ever let her do an ultrasound without me since our last one we found out we lost the baby.  I was so relieved I was there for it because I couldn't imagine her having to make that phone call to us.  That is asking too much.  So I will be there holding her hand and us doing this together.  I have so much hope that this is it, so I have no doubt our little apple seed is growing and strong. 

Well, this has been an exciting couple of weeks and I cant wait for next Wednesday!!  I will update you all as soon as I get that picture and let you know how we are progressing.  Hope everyone had a fantastic Canada Day and 4th of July!  Let me know if you have any questions, would love to answer them.  

11 comments:

  1. I know we don't eachother all that well but I couldn't help tearing up reading this....
    As someone who has struggled with infertility for years I can't help but feel this strange feeling of love/understanding/joy for you guys.... I'm just so happy for you!!! I can't even describe it. Anyways I will keep creeping your blog as you add new posts! Gives me hope for the future

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  2. Thanks Kristi! That's so nice! Infertility is awful and wouldn't wish it on anyone. Have hope!! I never thought it would ever be possible to have another one.

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  3. So exciting Jolayne! I wish I had someone as entertaining as you with me at all my (many many) appointments for my twins!

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    1. Thanks Danielle. Haha, I wonder if you would think twice after I was playing with the internal ultrasound? 😂

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    2. Oh yes, the probe. Lightening up the mood is always welcome, and I hope you washed your hands. 😉 😂

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    3. Oh yes, the probe. Lightening up the mood is always welcome, and I hope you washed your hands. 😉 😂

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  4. I had to quit Facebook last year due to security issues (being stalked) and the whole time l have been wondering what happened with your situation. I had read every posting about you and Andrea and the journey you are on, until l quit me account. I set up this one to stay in touch with close family and friends, and started seeing postings again because my friends liked them. I am thrilled for you all. Fingers crossed and saying prayers that it all works out. Good luck!��

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    1. That sounds scary! I'm sorry you had that happen! Thanks so much for following, we are so grateful for all of the support in this. It's been so crazy and the support had kept us going.

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  5. You kept sponges in your pocket so you could sniff them? You are so weird, Jolayne. But that's why I love you! Thanks for letting us go on this journey with you.

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    1. Yup. 😂😂😂. Hiding your addictions just never works

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